Oh My...

Honestly, at this stage in the game, I am not sure where I am.. I know I need to bring my "A" game, but I am not sure its not enough.. I am not sure if I can handle all of this pressure.. I am not sure what my next steps are.. I feel helpless, wanting someone to pick me up and dust me to help me get there... But I have to want to get there with Jesus.... I have to remember that I have been made in His image and that I am good enough where I am for Him.. :) My fav song right now is "Good Enough" by Anthony Evans. I have my ups and downs and I don't know if I am good enough sometimes. But the Lord always reminds me that I am.

I am not made to be sad, angry and just plain messed up all of the time. I really need some time to heal from ALL OF THIS PROCESS in this season of my world.. I have been spending alot of time with my fam and I am soooooooooooooooooo grateful for them... If I didn't have them around, I would have driven myself to Terrell and admitted myself a while back. So serious. If they wouldn't have taken me, I would have driven myself to Rusk.

I am in between sooo many emotions, but I do know one thing... God's grace, love and mercy,kindness and everlasting patience will NEVER DIE !!!! When I think about my past and think about where I am right now, I want to cry and shout because of where I have been and I don't want to even think about going back to that life that's dead....

I am so excited that the Lord is giving me a do over. And I am honored that I have fam and friends who want to see me succeed !!!!!

Thank you, thank you, and thank you again to those who truly love me and want to see my flourish...

Until we meet again,

Jenn