I Wonder....

I have been spending time encouraging myself and talking to the Lord these last couple of days, and I wonder if I haven't lost my mind yet. I wonder sometimes if I am truly in "Jenn Jenn" land. I do know that the Lord has heard every single, moan, groan, cry, scream, mumble I have given him over the course of the summer. Which I am glad about because as I stated in an older post, I would be on my way to Terrell (with a tie dyed straight jacket) admitting myself.

Am I the only one who feels its necessary to look foolish talking to myself? Am I the only one who doesn't want to "punk out" when it comes to J? I know this entry may not make a whole lot of sense and my intent is for it not to. I am babbling away because I would much rather type it out than to speak my mind and someone's feelings get hurt.

I love the fact that I can whisper to the Lord and He hears me. I love the fact that when I want to yell at the top of my lungs and cry and vent, that He hears me. I love it especially when I can just curl up into a ball and lay there and He can hear my inner most secrets and thoughts. I am sooooooooooooooooooo glad that I have a Father who loves me when I don't even desire or better deserve a tiny, itty, bitty bit of grace, soverignty and mercy.

***Thank you Father for giving me the opportunity to worship and praise through my every movement,thought. I am grateful to you even though I don't act like that I am grateful.. My heart is yours, now and forever......***

Jenn Jenn