12 years ago today...

My mom went home to be with Jesus. I cannot believe its been that long. I remember it was the end of my junior year into my senior year in high school when mom and I really started hanging. Even when she was tired and didn't feel like it, she made sure she did things with me. I remember our late night fried egg sandwiches while watching I love Lucy. :) I remember rolling mom's hair and watching her westerns. And you couldn't talk at all during the three and a half hour western extravaganza either. You had to wait until a commerical was on before speaking. Something that is just sticking out in my mind right now is that I was told that I have said that mom didn't do anything for me that's why I didn't know how to do certain things. Well, thinking about what was said and remembering probably what I meant was at the time I felt I needed her (in my eyes) the most, she wasn't able to be there for me like I would have liked. My siblings had more time with her than I did. I don't remember the times I was told of because I was younger.

And I am sure when I spoke out about my mom not being there for me was probably because I was mad or hurt at the time. Who knows. But I would hope that my fam wouldn't hold that over my head. I was spoiled (still am according to some folks :) ) beyond belief..I am the baby of the family and it shows. :) I am not saying that she wasn't there for me because I know she was. Some things that I wanted to know, I didn't get a chance to ask or do with her because she went home to be with Jesus.

I am glad that the Lord saw fit for me to be in the fam that I am in. I love each one of my siblings to pieces. I wouldn't trade them for anything. And we get closer and closer which makes my heart melt. Thank you Lord for giving me a mother who truly took care of her children and did everything she could to provide for us (I know daddy did things for us too.. its mom's day).

So, today (and any other day) I am going to remember the times I got to spend with my mom. When we laughed til our stomachs hurt, when we got to shop for my prom shoes fifteen minutes before the mall closed, when I watched T.V. with her, when she would "jack" me up when I did something uncool. :) The other part is I see my mom in my daughter. It's really neat to see mannerisms that mom had manifested in "D". :) I miss her and I know I will see her again. Her legacy lives on thru her daughters and granddaughter. If your parents are still around, make sure you tell them how much they mean to you (even if they get on your last good retarded nerve). Spoil them like they spoiled you... Just enjoy them... :)