Tears Like A River...

Ya know, I knew it was coming. I knew it was going to hit me. I knew that soon, I would breakdown and cry sooo hard my eyes, head and heart would hurt.... My life is topsy-turvy and sooo many things ran through my head in a matter of 15 secs it felt like... I am glad that I got it out, but wow.... I didn't realize how much of what has been going on with my world I had pinned up in my 4'11 stature... And just when I felt like there was no hope for me, when I felt at my wits end, the Holy Spirit comforted me with something soo special that my sister sent me a while back...

HANDY LITTLE CHART -
God has a positive answer:

You say: "It's impossible" God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired" God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me" God says: I love you (John 3:1 6 & John 3:34 )
You say: "I can't go on" God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out" God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5- 6)
You say: "I can't do it" God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able" God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it" God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )
You say: "I can't forgive myself" God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage" God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid" God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated" God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I'm not smart enough" God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone" God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

I got the chance to remember how much my Daddy loves me.. I had the opportunity to fall in love with Him on whole other level. I am in love with Jesus and He is in love with me. This chart is going to help reshape my thinking and outlook on things. How marvelous is it that we can cry til it hurts knowing that His arms are right there to hold us and love on us. I know without a shadow of a doubt that the decisions I have made thus far, haven't been wrong, that I am indeed good enough, that I am worth more than I think. Truth be told, I don't like feeling I am second or that I am not important enough to someone.

It was time for me to truly let go... It was time for me to readjust the color of my glasses and see clearly what's going down. And know that in time, with patience and endurance this race will indeed be won !!!

Love ya,